There is a phrase that has stayed with me throughout much of my leadership career.
Reflection before reaction.
It sounds obvious. Most leaders would probably agree that taking time to think before responding is a sensible habit. Yet I have gradually realised that reflection is not valuable simply because it slows us down. It is valuable because it gives us the opportunity to respond differently. Looking back only matters if it changes what happens next.
That has not always come naturally to me.
Early in my leadership career, I believed I had something to prove. I thought leadership was about demonstrating that I deserved the title, making quick decisions and showing people I knew what I was doing. Looking back now, I realise many of my quickest reactions came from a desire to prove myself rather than improve myself. Those are two very different mindsets. Leaders who feel they must constantly prove themselves often react quickly. Leaders who are committed to improving themselves are usually more willing to pause, reflect and remain curious before deciding what to do next.
Reflection has gradually become one of the most valuable leadership habits I have developed. It is rarely a formal process. More often it happens while driving home, walking between meetings or standing in the shower replaying conversations in my head. I find myself exploring different possibilities, testing different responses and imagining how each approach might affect the people involved. My family have occasionally caught me talking to myself, and they are probably right to wonder what on earth I am doing. The reality is that many of my leadership decisions are made long before I return to my office. They are shaped during those quiet conversations I have with myself when nobody else is listening.
One of the biggest changes reflection has brought is in the way I disagree with people.
Healthy organisations need disagreement. Different opinions challenge assumptions, improve ideas and prevent leaders from becoming trapped inside their own thinking. The problem is that disagreement can very quickly become personal if we are not careful. Once people feel that they themselves are under attack, curiosity disappears and defensiveness takes its place.
Over the years I have become increasingly deliberate with my language. I try to say, “I disagree with that point of view,” rather than, “I disagree with you.” It sounds like a tiny difference, yet it completely changes the conversation. Even when speaking face to face, I often find myself gesturing towards the space between us rather than pointing towards the individual. It is my own quiet reminder that the discussion is about an idea, not the person sitting opposite me.
That distinction matters more than we sometimes realise.
Personally, criticism has never troubled me particularly. I have developed fairly broad shoulders over the years. Not everybody has. Many younger colleagues are still developing their confidence and professional identity. A conversation that I experience as healthy debate may feel deeply personal to somebody else. Leadership has taught me that our intentions matter, but the impact of our words matters even more. If people leave a conversation believing they have been diminished rather than challenged, then I have probably handled it badly.
Reflection has also changed the way I think about blame.
When something goes wrong, it is very easy to ask who made the mistake. Experience has gradually encouraged me to ask a different question first.
What have I missed?
I remember giving my leadership team a set of instructions for a piece of work that we had completed successfully the previous year. In my mind, everybody already understood the process, so I assumed a brief explanation would be enough. It was not. Different people interpreted the instructions in different ways. Emails followed. Clarifications became necessary. Eventually we held another meeting simply to ensure everyone understood the same message.
Some people argued that colleagues should have known.
Perhaps they should have.
But perhaps I should have communicated more clearly.
Looking back, I realised I had relied on assumptions instead of clarity. That experience reinforced something I have come to believe very strongly. The longer I have led, the less interested I have become in asking who got something wrong and the more interested I have become in asking what I could have done differently to help people succeed. Clarity is my responsibility.
Reflection, however, comes with its own danger.
Sometimes we confuse reflection with progress.
I know I have.
I have left meetings convinced that we had learnt important lessons. I have written pages of notes after difficult conversations. I have promised myself that next time I would communicate more clearly or prepare more thoroughly. Then life became busy. Other priorities emerged. Weeks later, despite all the reflection, very little had actually changed.
That has been one of the most uncomfortable lessons of my career.
Reflection is only worthwhile if it influences future behaviour.
Otherwise it is little more than an interesting conversation with ourselves.
Perhaps the greatest test of reflection is whether it changes the way we respond when we realise we have been wrong.
I have reacted too quickly more times than I care to remember. Occasionally I have interpreted comments as personal when they were probably never intended that way. My tone has changed. I have interrupted. I have responded too emotionally. Looking back, I can usually identify the exact moment where I should have paused instead of reacting.
When that has happened, I have always tried to apologise properly.
Not with a hurried, “Sorry about that.“
Instead, I try to acknowledge exactly what happened.
“I reacted in a way that was unprofessional. I should not have done that, and I am genuinely sorry.“
Almost without exception, the other person replies, “It’s okay.“
My response is usually the same.
“Actually, no, it isn’t okay. I hold myself to a higher standard than I demonstrated in that moment.“
That response is not about making somebody feel guilty.
It is about reminding myself that the standards I expect from others must first apply to me. I have found that genuine accountability rarely weakens a leader. More often, it strengthens trust because people see that your expectations begin with yourself.
Looking back, I no longer think reflection is the difficult part of leadership.
Most leaders are capable of reflecting.
The real challenge is allowing that reflection to change something.
It might change the way we communicate.
It might change the assumptions we make.
It might change the questions we ask.
Sometimes it simply changes the words we choose in our next difficult conversation.
If there is one lesson I hope people remember from this article, it is this.
Disagree with the point of view.
Never with the person.
It is one of the smallest changes a leader can make, yet it can have one of the greatest impacts on trust, relationships and the quality of conversations.
Because reflection means very little if nothing changes afterwards.
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